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http://www.antiviolence.us/
This site is merely the beginning of what is to become the AntiViolence site.
My name is Sam Pfannkuche from a band called Imperative Reaction. The reason I created this fund is because my brother Josh was brutally attacked in Los Angeles on the Metro subway on May 15, 2005. The attackers slammed his face repeatedly into the bar on the seat in front of him until he was unconscious then proceeded to rob him. He woke up a few hours later and crawled onto a street where someone found him and took him to the hospital.
His jaw was broken and detached and is now wired shut, his eye socket fractured, sinuses shattered, nose broken, teeth broken. We feel truly blessed that he is still alive, as he was left for dead. He is doing better now, but life is still quite difficult. His wires are coming off in a few weeks, which is great news. He is going to need some surgery on his nose and surgery to get his jaw unwired, and quite a bit of dental work to have teeth fixed, braced, replaced and capped, but he is looking great, especially after what has happened to him.
The sense of security on the subway in Los Angeles is virtually non-existent ever since the Police Department is no longer patrolling the subway and the Los Angeles Sheriffs department are. The MTA in Los Angeles have been less than helpful. There was a camera on the train with no tape in it. The camera was closed circuit and the car operator wasn't watching. They didn't even notice my brother was left on the train for a few hours. Josh managed to crawl out onto some random street and luckily someone found him and brought him to the hospital. The MTA just mopped up the blood and never filed a report. My brother's girlfriend attempted to file a report and the transit police came three days later to get his story. Although the attackers tried to kill my brother, the Los Angeles Sheriffs Department is calling this crime a "kidnapping", as the perpetrators held him against his will on the train as they beat him. By the LA Sheriffs deeming the crime a "kidnapping", the severity of the crime is less and they have to be a lot less proactive. The LAPD would have billed the crime as "attempted murder". I definitely feel it was attempted murder. To clarify any misunderstandings, the LAPD has actually been quite helpful in this case. It's the LA Sheriffs Department and the MTA that have not. You can find his entire story in his own words right here in his Friendster Blog
( http://joshuap.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/2005/05/pass_the_codein.html ).
This brutal and senseless act is definitely a call to action. Josh is far from alone, and there are far too few people in positions of power helping.
The Event and How You Can Help
Myself in conjunction with some of the top promoters and performers in our scene are putting together a benefit called 'AntiViolence'. All proceeds for this event will be divided between the National Center for Victims of Crime (who are officially on board) and for Joshua's medical bills which will be immense due to his lack of health insurance and impending surgeries. I would like to help my brother as well as give to organizations that have helped him and many others nationwide like him. Here are the event details:
AntiViolence Los Angeles Benefit
Live Performances By:
Imperative Reaction
System Syn
STG
TBA
DJ lineup TBA
Sunday, August 21st at
The Key Club
9039 Sunset Blvd, Hollywood CA
We are seeking merchandise donations for this event. There will be a raffle at the event with awesome merchandise up for grabs. We have pledged product donations from artists such as A.F.I., Assemblage 23, Imperative Reaction, System Syn, Haujobb, Decoded Feedback, BATTL and others; as well as donations from independent artists and labels such as Metropolis, WTII, 23db, COP Int'l and more. I pledged donations from local LA merchants such as Amoeba Records. Please contact me at evolve555@hotmail.com if you are interested in donating merchandise, goods or services for the raffle and the event.
ATTENTION:
My brother has actively hired a private investigator and a lawyer, and we are looking for other people that have been attacked on the Los Angeles Subway. Please contact us if you or anyone you know fit the following criteria:
- Must have been on MTA RAIL subway system in Southern Cali.
- Must have an incident report on file with MTA
- Must have an incident report on file with the police/sheriffs dept.
If you would like to donate money, please use the PayPal/DropCash.com donation tracker below:
a Dropcash campaign
Antiviolence LA/Josh P Fund
$5,202 of $20,000 raised so far
donate now »
Moving Forward...
The AntiViolence.us site is not just a site for events here in Los Angeles. We hope this is motivation for anyone who wants to run an AntiViolence charity event. There are AntiViolence charity events forming in Seattle, Mexico City, Indianapolis and other cities. Contact me at evolve555@hotmail.com to learn how you can help by promoting an AntiViolence event where you are.
We would like to thank each of you for your consideration and your kind words. Best wishes to everyone, and please try to live safe and aware.
Sincerely,
Sam Pfannkuche/AntiViolence LA
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[08 Jun 2005|09:18pm] |
1. PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? “worthless” carved in my leg. I did it when I felt worthless.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? posters, pictures, concert tickets and random shit.
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? All music worth listening to
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? no
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? to be dead
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES? my father
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? My grandmothers ring
9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? My boy friends body wash
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? Only in groups of people
11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW? I would be content
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? My mother
13. What is your favorite cologne/perfume? Cool water
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? unique, interesting different hair
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
What a load of shit, no one wants me
16.DO YOU LIKE PORN? Kind of, watch to make fun of it
17. WHAT ARE YOUR FOUR FAVORITE MOVIES? nightmare before Christmas, SLC punk, Wayne’s world, lords of dog town
18. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON? No one will want me or put up with me that long.
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? matt
20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? Spanish but barely
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX ?) ring
22. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER(s)?depends on my mood
23. FAVORITE BAND(s)? nine inch nails, orgy, pantera… a lot of others
24. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ? Horror, erotica, mystery, psych-horror
25. FAVORITE DESSERT: anything w/ caramel
26. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE? regular with lots of cream and sugar
27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PHRASE? Fuck you you’re a dirty cunt
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? never
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? don’t tell them, people are a disappointment and they will kill you at every opportunity
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 13
31. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES? Red-heads
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? My boyfriend
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? People who complain when they have every thing except that viper daddy wont buy them
34. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? yea
35. WHO IS YOUR CURRENT CRUSH? Fuck crushes, im crushed
36: WHAT IS YOUR WORST FEAR? Open water
37: SAY SOMETHING TO SOMEONE YOU HAVEN'T SEEN/TALKED TO IN AWHILE: fuck you for leaving me alone
38: HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND NOT MEANT IT? no
39: WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS SURVEY? Trying to fix my fucking internet
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE? I want to be skinny…I know its sad and common but its true.
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have not updated in a long time. got a new job, new friend, new cuts, new scars. oh well, life goes on. i love kimmy :) thx kimmy, you know what for. i miss some of you, but then some of you can go to hell. school is out...wierd. what ever. my internet is stupid and it fuckin sucks. matt is going to orlando to play a show and you drama loving ass holes are not invited so fuck off, you know who you are. my family disowned me...again. i didnt know you could do it more than once. fuck it, who needs them. well i think im going to live in new jersey with my god parents. not sure yet. i wont be gone til end of summer if i go. i was at sawgrass last night, gameworks and movies. josh was there...he hit me and then sprained my fingers...cunt. zak wanted to beat him half to death. obviously for any of you who know me i told him not to. last thing i need is for him to be in jail. killing my hand to type so i guess im out. you all have my info if ya wanna chill
the forsaken mystic love...just a worthless mistake
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[07 Jun 2005|01:20pm] |
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment
grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”
He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…
Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry”
He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!”
HONK~!!
“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…
“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty
five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
“I….lo..ve…you??”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…
“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…
For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life….
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[24 May 2005|03:54pm] |
took them all my self with a picture phone.
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go on google and on image search copy and paste the first image u see for the answers u put in.
#1 your name
#2 your birthday
#3 the first three letters of ur screen name
#4 your favorite body part
#5 your favorite color
#6 your pet
these are ine...wierd
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please EVERYONE respond to this. ill make it public so you can be annonimus. give ideas for fetishes. i study them and i need new ones. thank you all for your help, especially sabbie
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X the ones you have done:
(x) I have been drunk
(x) I have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I have kissed a member of the same sex
( ) I crashed a friend's car
( ) I have been to Japan
(x) I rode in a taxi
(x) I have been in love
(x) I've had sex
(x) I've had sexual relations in public
(x) I've shoplifted
( ) I have been fired
(x) I have cut myself on purpose
( ) I have smoked pot
( ) I still smoke pot
(x) I've had a 3-some
(x) I've snuck out of my parent's house
(x) I have been tied up. (yes...in THAT way)
(x) I pissed on myself
(x) I have been arrested
( ) I've made out with a stranger
(x) I've stolen something from my job
( ) I've celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(x) I've gone on a blind date
(x) I've lied to a friend
( ) I've had a crush on a teacher
( ) I've celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
( ) I have been to Europe
(x) I've skipped school
(x) I have thrown up in a bar
(x) I have purposely set myself on fire
(x) I have eaten sushi
(x) I have been snowboarding
( ) I have been happy with myself
(x) I have met a movie star
(x) I had sex in a pool
(x) I went to a dance with someone of the same sex
( ) I've bungee jumped
( ) I have been to a pop concert
(x) I have dated someone for over a year
( ) I sold naked pictures of myself
(x) I have been in a car accident
(x) I have slept in the nude
(x) I've eaten cheesecake
( ) I've had jury duty
(x) I've hated someone without knowing them
(x) I have given oral sex
(x) I have recieved oral sex
(x) I've shot a real gun
(x) I've ran around with my trousers around my ankles
( ) I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
(x) I've done ecstasy
(x) I've gotten my ass kicked
( ) I've been caught smoking
(x) I've worn boxers
( ) I've milked a cow
(x) I've got in a verbal fight with a teacher
(x) I've cheated on someone
(x) had sex with a best friend
( ) Lied one time in this survey
( ) Lied more then once in this survey.
(x) Lied to a friend you see everyday
(x) Kissed a person that has a g/f or b/f
(x) Used ice cubes as a foreplay accessory
(x) Wasted time filling this out instead of doing something productive
(x) Have nude pics of yourself on your computer
(x) Walked across 8 lanes of interstate highway
(x) Have been to camp
(x) Have read a book(s) more than one time
(x) Have eaten cat food
(x) Have been pulled over by a cop
(x) Own porn
( ) Am a Republican
(x) Likes classic movies
( ) Own a kitty
( ) Carried a lunchbox in high school
(x) Buy gumballs to watch them swirl in the machine
(x) Likes to be dominated
(x) Likes to drive with the windows down and the music turned up
(x) Eats PB &J for breakfast because there's nothing else
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